Kala and Ohr: The Time of Light
by Dayaw
Deepest Parts of Earth-Time
My “first innerdance session” was in Cebu during the Emergence Convergence Transformation Medicine. I lied down and smiled to myself, the room’s light dimmed and I slowly closed my eyes. Music played. I experienced sensations in my body connected to my deep breaths. There was a strong electric current that was charging my entire system until it focused on my hands and they started moving. I laughed in my mind saying “I know this.” I immediately allowed myself to surrender to the movements coming from both knowing everything and not knowing anything.
Images then appeared. My inner eyes started opening. From the darkness of the room, masks and faces started to show up. Humans and non-humans. Without thought and question, I just observed. When the faces dissolved, streaks of light started to appear. I felt like I was so light, flying so fast, and then lighter, faster. The streaks of light looked like moving stars as if I was flying with a thousand meteors. A spectacular show! I marveled at how my seeing connects to the sounds I was hearing and the movements that my body was doing. I also smelled different scents of oils. I realized, OK... I am intensely moving in “outer space.”
My body turned and shifted, the music changed and I suddenly found myself in the dark again. But this time, I smelled the scent of rain, of wet earth. I can hear the quiet rustling of leaves somewhere. My body was in the fetal position. I felt my feet turning cold from the gushes of wind. I can feel gravity again, I was dreaming inside a cave.
The “session ended.” I woke up from a dream within a dream. I had nothing to share to the circle. I had no words. But the questions were echoing inside of me: Who am I... How long have I been here... What the heck was that?!
Womb of Wombs
There was another deeply meaningful session I had in the Convergence. It was in the Orange pod called the Womb Room. Isa, a German midwife, prepared the space and held it for people going in and out of the colors. Her music started with heartbeats, and a subtle sound of water. My eyes were still open but I immediately felt I was in the womb.
Upon lying down and closing my eyes, my body automatically coiled again. Fetal position again. Everything was black but my senses were all very open. My heart swelled and started crying. In a shift I then felt sudden bliss. My body wasn’t moving, it was just there, a fetus in the room. But my emotions were moving so crazy – shifting, becoming stable and then shifting again. I was loosing my mind and I thought, “perfect!” The waves of emotions stopped when a very magnetic force started to make my womb feel so heavy. It felt like I was going to have my period as the day before, a chakra device read that my Orange was so hyperactive. I told Rosa, the lady who was facilitating the device, that I haven’t had my period yet so maybe it’s just that. I was like, “shit am I going to start bleeding here now?”
I laughed at my own silly thoughts and started focusing again on my womb that felt like it was growing. I can never properly describe the energy in my womb that time but upon sharing in the circle, I was giggling when I said maybe that’s the feeling of giving birth?
In the Womb Room, I spoke to my womb and my womb spoke back.
In the Womb Room, I was a baby who gave birth to a baby, a baby within the baby within.
Grandmother Wisdom
The reason why I was in that Transformation Medicine Convergence was because I was looking for people whom I can speak with in relation to entheogenic healing. Dodi, my partner, and I experimented and ingested the sacred Ayahuasca plant months before, and I was in a certain process of opening myself to ancient knowledge, looking for guidance from healers and doctors about holistic healing and medicine. I just quit my Master’s at the University that time, so coming from a scholarly background, I was so geared to do this research. Later did I realize that the re-search was a search within and I was actually in my baby steps towards my own healing.
After the session at the Womb Room, I went out to get some air. A little girl spoke to me in Bisaya asking for a coin. I gave her a coin. She then took my hand and put it on her forehead saying “Mano po, lola” then left. I felt so old, after being both the baby and the mother just some minutes ago.
I remembered what others said: When our grandmother was pregnant with our mother, we were already inside our mother’s womb. It’s nothing but an inception of wombs and bodies within the Bigger Womb of the Earth.
Kala’s Here
Upon going home to my partner in Manila, I told him what happened in Cebu. I tried. Of course, my words were still startled like I was just starting to learn how to speak. A week after, I messaged Isa and told her that my period didn’t come because I was actually already pregnant at the time of the Convergence. She was so happy upon knowing and said she can be my midwife!
When Dodi and I took Ayahuasca, the Grandmother Spirit came to me with a chant: “New year... New year...” I then understood from that, that I’m going to have a baby. Dodi too, experienced birth that time as he felt strong surges of energy in his womb. Indeed, we were blessed with messages from the Whole. The entire Universe was speaking to us in a speech that was speechless.
Without any thought, I flew to Maia a month after and attended Pi’s last 5-day Energy School before he pledges for silence. Dodi and I decided that I will give birth in Maia with Isa. I was the second woman who gave birth in Orange.
Before birth, I had so much of my time in Orange creating – painting, singing, dancing, writing and reading. What I was most grateful for was that, the supposed collective house was left to myself and I had so much space to process my relationship with my biological mother and the lineage of mothers before her. A kind of ancestral reading and cleansing emerged. This was how I prepared myself into birth, deeply calling the guidance of the Grandmother Wisdom.
Here is Kala’s birth story: sikdosilakbo.wordpress.com/2018/03/17/kalas-full-lotus-gentle-birth/
Mothering the Mother and the Maiden’s Death
When Kala came out I didn’t know much what to do. I needed guidance. It’s my first time to be a mother albeit having experiences taking care of the younger ones in our family. It was still very different.
I experienced a kind of expansion that I couldn’t contain in the structures of my old mind, my old being. Janine was dying, slowly, being transformed into someone else. It’s not easy being a mother, especially in a village where processes are individualized. After a blissful birth I had a hard time in Maia, left mostly alone in Red (we moved there after the nesting and birth in Orange) without support with my new baby. Orange then Red were perfect colors. Dodi that time was also going through something deep in terms of his past and we were both overwhelmed by the fact that we were both parents already. We were both clueless in the path that we decided to walk upon, which was in essence, perfect. We were going through the same thing and it wasn’t easy to hold space for each other’s death. Mirroring was heavy, we had to heal so many deep wounds if we were aspiring to set a good condition for the blossoming of a New Family.
Kala was 4 months when we made up our minds to fly Kala back to Luzon to meet our families. It is from the ashes of the Old Family that a New Family will spring forth, so we had to face it and burn ourselves. But most importantly, I knew something was there for me to learn from my mother and other mothers in our clan.
Kala’s Essence, Black Time
After a month I went back for Serena’s 10-day Energy School because I felt in me something of a deep process that was opening up into what most mothers call “post-partum depression.” With the supportive process, I understood that what I was going through was actually very important. I needed deep-rest, hence, the depression. The Dark Mother slowly introduced herself to me.
Black as the magnetic density that of which holds everything, the heaviness of the darkness actually contains all the possibilities of Life. I was transported back to the Nothing. How can it be Nothing when I can feel in my heart Everything? When Consciousness IS Everything? I dived 1000x fast the darkness and my entire system opened up to a new way of Knowing. I saw The Book, and opened the Book of Time....
I went back to my family and Dodi in Luzon after a month in Palawan alone with Kala. I stopped all my psychedelic explorations to truly tune into the Real without assistance. I wanted to get stronger so I can hold another life so beautiful and graceful and innocent, in the name of baby Kala.
Ohr’s Voice
Kala was half way through her 1st orbit around the sun when we decided to bring her to Mt. Banahaw. It is a sacred mountain in Laguna, my hometown, where folk healers and seekers of all sorts go to for cleansing and strength and power. My mother’s house is near the mountain, as in everyday I would see its majestic presence. Dodi’s real name is the same as the mountain.
Dodi and I brought a tent to spend the night in the mountain. But when it rained, we found ourselves tucked with tiny little Kala inside a small chapel. It was in that innerdancy space of dreaming awake, conscious in deep sleep that Ohr’s soul came to me. He said I will have another baby and it will be a boy. I woke up crying. And slowly, I told Dodi about what happened.
Mixed emotions were felt after getting the message. My mind thought it’s too early for another one because I felt myself still healing from Kala’s birth. I sensed that it’s going to be very difficult if ever so I kneeled in one part of the mountain and prayed to the Highest Source to please give me this boy in the right time. Although, upon the encounter was already the deepest love for this soul.
After months of integration with family, we went back to Maia to assist dearest Isa’s birth.
Grandmother’s Death, Healing the Father
Quickly after coming back to Palawan was a huge alignment with the opening of Indigo as a space. It was my birthday when the introduction to Studious Mundos opened. The month- long process on top of the mountain was Big. But it was also small in a way. I had a Life Review that was both personal and planetary and cosmic.
The Book had a Library in it. The Library was a Story.
There were certain contractions in the field of Maia after Indigo opened. We left Palawan again because of a strong, sudden feeling.
When I reached Manila, I heard that my grandmother on my father’s side was very, very sick. I did everything I could so I can visit her in Rizal. After seeing her in the hospital she left this world so quietly.
Seeing her in her deathbed was liberating. Seeing nurses inject things to her expiring body, all sorts of cords and medicines trying to revive her and make her body work, I realized, I wanted to leave this world like how I chose to birth—all-naturally. Let the organs rest if they no longer work. Let my eyes close forever, my olfactory senses expire, my hearing fade into the Quietness of All.
I haven’t seen my grandmother ever since my father died. It took me almost two decades to see her again and my father’s entire clan. Each face that I see resembled the face of my father. I see my uncle and speak to my father’s eyes. I spend time with my aunt and hear my father’s laughter. In one death, everything else became alive.
Ohr’s Essence, Effervescent Light
After a year of that encounter in Mt. Banahaw, this little boy came and manifested his body into my womb. With respect to the process he did knew when to come.
During a sensual dance with Dodi, my arms started opening up and I moved slowly as if I was flying. There was a form, a man? with huge wings that showed himself. He was floating, vibrant in sparkling light. Apparently that moment, I already conceived our second baby.
Dodi told me a story of one of his past psychedelic experience when he saw a little girl about 3 years old, holding the hand of a little boy, about one. The little girl was holding a stick while the boy was jumping around her. Little did we know that those beings were our very own children.
After a few weeks, I was walking freely in the living room when Dodi caught my attention. His stare was solid. He said, “Nanay, I feel that you might be pregnant again.”
Grandmother Midwife
Upon knowing about our second pregnancy, initially, we wanted to birth in Maia again. I asked Pi if there was space for us but he said that certain group processes were lined up. I then felt that it was not going to be in Maia. Learning from our past experience with regards to support system, Dodi and I decided to do it in his childhood home, near my family and with some of his family. Fuller and deeper integration into filial codes.
I met Aileen when a friend of mine gave her second water birth in her clinic. We kept in touch as conscious birth-keepers. After letting go of the idea that I will birth with Isa again, Aileen was just there as if she's just waiting for me. Isa sent me the pool she used for her birth and a couple more water births in Palawan. Sisters of the travelling pool, we laughingly called it. Aileen had heard of the Palawan births and was so interested how we do it there. She said, "I heard of you birthing women who are in trance and dancing throughout labor!" We shared stories of inspiration and became good friends.
When Dodi and I finally decided to birth with her, I dreamt of Ohr's birthing. Same with Kala when she revealed her gender to us. I'm forever grateful that my children gift me with visions, helping me see what is Real. Going back to the dream, the sun was golden and there were tiny droplets of rain refracting its light. In an old adage: "May kinakasal na engkanto." The plants in the garden had so much life, they felt so full. Aileen came to the birth with an old lady. This old lady looked at me in the eyes as if telling me, "Remember my face." I told Aileen about her and described the old lady to her.
Apparently, it was Aileen's grandmother who was an old Kumadrona in their province, she has a lineage of birth-keeping. A few months after, Aileen messaged me in the middle of the night that her mother dreamt of her lola saying that she has been with her though births and has been guiding her. My heart swelled upon hearing the story. Aileen's grandmother is going to my birth! What an honor!
Ohr’s Here
So much of my process with carrying Ohr in my womb was about The Father. Aside from nesting in his father’s home, a lot of the things that kept emerging is my own connection to the Father Within. After Lola Ibing's death, I slowly entered again the field of my father's sphere, getting to know again my aunts and uncles and my dear cousins who have their own children as well. So much has unfolded.
Dodi too, had to welcome his father in our house and start living with him again. During my pregnancy with Kala, I was mostly surrounded by great feminine energy in the form of the women in Maia. In my pregnancy with Ohr, a certain masculinity surrounded me as Dodi's friends (whom he calls brothers) started to take care of me as well.
I was 7 months pregnant when the COVID-19 lockdown was implemented in Manila. As the entire world shifts anew, a new life inside me was waiting to be born.
Here is Ohr’s birth story: sikdosilakbo.wordpress.com/2020/07/12/ohrs-full-lotus-water-birth/
From Black, then Presence of All Colors
Ever since the world went into the pandemic crisis, a huge change has been happening. From our little abode, it’s nice to observe and see more people planting, more people cooking their own food, more people doing their own laundry, cleaning their own homes – going back to basic structures of simple systems like food, clothing, shelter. People are taking responsibility for their health, concerned about themselves and other people.
All the more that humanity experiences the darkness of what we have made of ourselves and the world, all the more that we inherently look for the paving of newer connections.
Light means the presence of all colors, and the ancient colors are now being called back as the world continues to dream of rebirthing itself.
My “first innerdance session” was in Cebu during the Emergence Convergence Transformation Medicine. I lied down and smiled to myself, the room’s light dimmed and I slowly closed my eyes. Music played. I experienced sensations in my body connected to my deep breaths. There was a strong electric current that was charging my entire system until it focused on my hands and they started moving. I laughed in my mind saying “I know this.” I immediately allowed myself to surrender to the movements coming from both knowing everything and not knowing anything.
Images then appeared. My inner eyes started opening. From the darkness of the room, masks and faces started to show up. Humans and non-humans. Without thought and question, I just observed. When the faces dissolved, streaks of light started to appear. I felt like I was so light, flying so fast, and then lighter, faster. The streaks of light looked like moving stars as if I was flying with a thousand meteors. A spectacular show! I marveled at how my seeing connects to the sounds I was hearing and the movements that my body was doing. I also smelled different scents of oils. I realized, OK... I am intensely moving in “outer space.”
My body turned and shifted, the music changed and I suddenly found myself in the dark again. But this time, I smelled the scent of rain, of wet earth. I can hear the quiet rustling of leaves somewhere. My body was in the fetal position. I felt my feet turning cold from the gushes of wind. I can feel gravity again, I was dreaming inside a cave.
The “session ended.” I woke up from a dream within a dream. I had nothing to share to the circle. I had no words. But the questions were echoing inside of me: Who am I... How long have I been here... What the heck was that?!
Womb of Wombs
There was another deeply meaningful session I had in the Convergence. It was in the Orange pod called the Womb Room. Isa, a German midwife, prepared the space and held it for people going in and out of the colors. Her music started with heartbeats, and a subtle sound of water. My eyes were still open but I immediately felt I was in the womb.
Upon lying down and closing my eyes, my body automatically coiled again. Fetal position again. Everything was black but my senses were all very open. My heart swelled and started crying. In a shift I then felt sudden bliss. My body wasn’t moving, it was just there, a fetus in the room. But my emotions were moving so crazy – shifting, becoming stable and then shifting again. I was loosing my mind and I thought, “perfect!” The waves of emotions stopped when a very magnetic force started to make my womb feel so heavy. It felt like I was going to have my period as the day before, a chakra device read that my Orange was so hyperactive. I told Rosa, the lady who was facilitating the device, that I haven’t had my period yet so maybe it’s just that. I was like, “shit am I going to start bleeding here now?”
I laughed at my own silly thoughts and started focusing again on my womb that felt like it was growing. I can never properly describe the energy in my womb that time but upon sharing in the circle, I was giggling when I said maybe that’s the feeling of giving birth?
In the Womb Room, I spoke to my womb and my womb spoke back.
In the Womb Room, I was a baby who gave birth to a baby, a baby within the baby within.
Grandmother Wisdom
The reason why I was in that Transformation Medicine Convergence was because I was looking for people whom I can speak with in relation to entheogenic healing. Dodi, my partner, and I experimented and ingested the sacred Ayahuasca plant months before, and I was in a certain process of opening myself to ancient knowledge, looking for guidance from healers and doctors about holistic healing and medicine. I just quit my Master’s at the University that time, so coming from a scholarly background, I was so geared to do this research. Later did I realize that the re-search was a search within and I was actually in my baby steps towards my own healing.
After the session at the Womb Room, I went out to get some air. A little girl spoke to me in Bisaya asking for a coin. I gave her a coin. She then took my hand and put it on her forehead saying “Mano po, lola” then left. I felt so old, after being both the baby and the mother just some minutes ago.
I remembered what others said: When our grandmother was pregnant with our mother, we were already inside our mother’s womb. It’s nothing but an inception of wombs and bodies within the Bigger Womb of the Earth.
Kala’s Here
Upon going home to my partner in Manila, I told him what happened in Cebu. I tried. Of course, my words were still startled like I was just starting to learn how to speak. A week after, I messaged Isa and told her that my period didn’t come because I was actually already pregnant at the time of the Convergence. She was so happy upon knowing and said she can be my midwife!
When Dodi and I took Ayahuasca, the Grandmother Spirit came to me with a chant: “New year... New year...” I then understood from that, that I’m going to have a baby. Dodi too, experienced birth that time as he felt strong surges of energy in his womb. Indeed, we were blessed with messages from the Whole. The entire Universe was speaking to us in a speech that was speechless.
Without any thought, I flew to Maia a month after and attended Pi’s last 5-day Energy School before he pledges for silence. Dodi and I decided that I will give birth in Maia with Isa. I was the second woman who gave birth in Orange.
Before birth, I had so much of my time in Orange creating – painting, singing, dancing, writing and reading. What I was most grateful for was that, the supposed collective house was left to myself and I had so much space to process my relationship with my biological mother and the lineage of mothers before her. A kind of ancestral reading and cleansing emerged. This was how I prepared myself into birth, deeply calling the guidance of the Grandmother Wisdom.
Here is Kala’s birth story: sikdosilakbo.wordpress.com/2018/03/17/kalas-full-lotus-gentle-birth/
Mothering the Mother and the Maiden’s Death
When Kala came out I didn’t know much what to do. I needed guidance. It’s my first time to be a mother albeit having experiences taking care of the younger ones in our family. It was still very different.
I experienced a kind of expansion that I couldn’t contain in the structures of my old mind, my old being. Janine was dying, slowly, being transformed into someone else. It’s not easy being a mother, especially in a village where processes are individualized. After a blissful birth I had a hard time in Maia, left mostly alone in Red (we moved there after the nesting and birth in Orange) without support with my new baby. Orange then Red were perfect colors. Dodi that time was also going through something deep in terms of his past and we were both overwhelmed by the fact that we were both parents already. We were both clueless in the path that we decided to walk upon, which was in essence, perfect. We were going through the same thing and it wasn’t easy to hold space for each other’s death. Mirroring was heavy, we had to heal so many deep wounds if we were aspiring to set a good condition for the blossoming of a New Family.
Kala was 4 months when we made up our minds to fly Kala back to Luzon to meet our families. It is from the ashes of the Old Family that a New Family will spring forth, so we had to face it and burn ourselves. But most importantly, I knew something was there for me to learn from my mother and other mothers in our clan.
Kala’s Essence, Black Time
After a month I went back for Serena’s 10-day Energy School because I felt in me something of a deep process that was opening up into what most mothers call “post-partum depression.” With the supportive process, I understood that what I was going through was actually very important. I needed deep-rest, hence, the depression. The Dark Mother slowly introduced herself to me.
Black as the magnetic density that of which holds everything, the heaviness of the darkness actually contains all the possibilities of Life. I was transported back to the Nothing. How can it be Nothing when I can feel in my heart Everything? When Consciousness IS Everything? I dived 1000x fast the darkness and my entire system opened up to a new way of Knowing. I saw The Book, and opened the Book of Time....
I went back to my family and Dodi in Luzon after a month in Palawan alone with Kala. I stopped all my psychedelic explorations to truly tune into the Real without assistance. I wanted to get stronger so I can hold another life so beautiful and graceful and innocent, in the name of baby Kala.
Ohr’s Voice
Kala was half way through her 1st orbit around the sun when we decided to bring her to Mt. Banahaw. It is a sacred mountain in Laguna, my hometown, where folk healers and seekers of all sorts go to for cleansing and strength and power. My mother’s house is near the mountain, as in everyday I would see its majestic presence. Dodi’s real name is the same as the mountain.
Dodi and I brought a tent to spend the night in the mountain. But when it rained, we found ourselves tucked with tiny little Kala inside a small chapel. It was in that innerdancy space of dreaming awake, conscious in deep sleep that Ohr’s soul came to me. He said I will have another baby and it will be a boy. I woke up crying. And slowly, I told Dodi about what happened.
Mixed emotions were felt after getting the message. My mind thought it’s too early for another one because I felt myself still healing from Kala’s birth. I sensed that it’s going to be very difficult if ever so I kneeled in one part of the mountain and prayed to the Highest Source to please give me this boy in the right time. Although, upon the encounter was already the deepest love for this soul.
After months of integration with family, we went back to Maia to assist dearest Isa’s birth.
Grandmother’s Death, Healing the Father
Quickly after coming back to Palawan was a huge alignment with the opening of Indigo as a space. It was my birthday when the introduction to Studious Mundos opened. The month- long process on top of the mountain was Big. But it was also small in a way. I had a Life Review that was both personal and planetary and cosmic.
The Book had a Library in it. The Library was a Story.
There were certain contractions in the field of Maia after Indigo opened. We left Palawan again because of a strong, sudden feeling.
When I reached Manila, I heard that my grandmother on my father’s side was very, very sick. I did everything I could so I can visit her in Rizal. After seeing her in the hospital she left this world so quietly.
Seeing her in her deathbed was liberating. Seeing nurses inject things to her expiring body, all sorts of cords and medicines trying to revive her and make her body work, I realized, I wanted to leave this world like how I chose to birth—all-naturally. Let the organs rest if they no longer work. Let my eyes close forever, my olfactory senses expire, my hearing fade into the Quietness of All.
I haven’t seen my grandmother ever since my father died. It took me almost two decades to see her again and my father’s entire clan. Each face that I see resembled the face of my father. I see my uncle and speak to my father’s eyes. I spend time with my aunt and hear my father’s laughter. In one death, everything else became alive.
Ohr’s Essence, Effervescent Light
After a year of that encounter in Mt. Banahaw, this little boy came and manifested his body into my womb. With respect to the process he did knew when to come.
During a sensual dance with Dodi, my arms started opening up and I moved slowly as if I was flying. There was a form, a man? with huge wings that showed himself. He was floating, vibrant in sparkling light. Apparently that moment, I already conceived our second baby.
Dodi told me a story of one of his past psychedelic experience when he saw a little girl about 3 years old, holding the hand of a little boy, about one. The little girl was holding a stick while the boy was jumping around her. Little did we know that those beings were our very own children.
After a few weeks, I was walking freely in the living room when Dodi caught my attention. His stare was solid. He said, “Nanay, I feel that you might be pregnant again.”
Grandmother Midwife
Upon knowing about our second pregnancy, initially, we wanted to birth in Maia again. I asked Pi if there was space for us but he said that certain group processes were lined up. I then felt that it was not going to be in Maia. Learning from our past experience with regards to support system, Dodi and I decided to do it in his childhood home, near my family and with some of his family. Fuller and deeper integration into filial codes.
I met Aileen when a friend of mine gave her second water birth in her clinic. We kept in touch as conscious birth-keepers. After letting go of the idea that I will birth with Isa again, Aileen was just there as if she's just waiting for me. Isa sent me the pool she used for her birth and a couple more water births in Palawan. Sisters of the travelling pool, we laughingly called it. Aileen had heard of the Palawan births and was so interested how we do it there. She said, "I heard of you birthing women who are in trance and dancing throughout labor!" We shared stories of inspiration and became good friends.
When Dodi and I finally decided to birth with her, I dreamt of Ohr's birthing. Same with Kala when she revealed her gender to us. I'm forever grateful that my children gift me with visions, helping me see what is Real. Going back to the dream, the sun was golden and there were tiny droplets of rain refracting its light. In an old adage: "May kinakasal na engkanto." The plants in the garden had so much life, they felt so full. Aileen came to the birth with an old lady. This old lady looked at me in the eyes as if telling me, "Remember my face." I told Aileen about her and described the old lady to her.
Apparently, it was Aileen's grandmother who was an old Kumadrona in their province, she has a lineage of birth-keeping. A few months after, Aileen messaged me in the middle of the night that her mother dreamt of her lola saying that she has been with her though births and has been guiding her. My heart swelled upon hearing the story. Aileen's grandmother is going to my birth! What an honor!
Ohr’s Here
So much of my process with carrying Ohr in my womb was about The Father. Aside from nesting in his father’s home, a lot of the things that kept emerging is my own connection to the Father Within. After Lola Ibing's death, I slowly entered again the field of my father's sphere, getting to know again my aunts and uncles and my dear cousins who have their own children as well. So much has unfolded.
Dodi too, had to welcome his father in our house and start living with him again. During my pregnancy with Kala, I was mostly surrounded by great feminine energy in the form of the women in Maia. In my pregnancy with Ohr, a certain masculinity surrounded me as Dodi's friends (whom he calls brothers) started to take care of me as well.
I was 7 months pregnant when the COVID-19 lockdown was implemented in Manila. As the entire world shifts anew, a new life inside me was waiting to be born.
Here is Ohr’s birth story: sikdosilakbo.wordpress.com/2020/07/12/ohrs-full-lotus-water-birth/
From Black, then Presence of All Colors
Ever since the world went into the pandemic crisis, a huge change has been happening. From our little abode, it’s nice to observe and see more people planting, more people cooking their own food, more people doing their own laundry, cleaning their own homes – going back to basic structures of simple systems like food, clothing, shelter. People are taking responsibility for their health, concerned about themselves and other people.
All the more that humanity experiences the darkness of what we have made of ourselves and the world, all the more that we inherently look for the paving of newer connections.
Light means the presence of all colors, and the ancient colors are now being called back as the world continues to dream of rebirthing itself.