Baby. Cosmos . Light . Death . Daisies . God . Trump . Lisa . Mouse .
Words are placeholders for consciousness. They are like folders for the infinite, halting the combinatory train of thought that allows each concept to exist through the web of concepts that it co-exists with.
How do we envelope infinitely profound life force into a word object?
In Linguistics, the process of arriving into the world of words is called Language Acquisition - the slow vocabularization process in which toddlers learn to combine sound and word for meanings to arise.
In some people who undergo deep innerdance process, language can either halt or it can speed up. The latter reveals many possibilities on the profound shifts brains undergo. In some cases, mental filters fully drop. Without losing access to their verbal lexicon, adults reenter the baby's Public Speech Stage. They begin to speak their mind without screening one's thoughts before these are translated into speech. Just as when they were children, this stage of speech development can be seen as an internal conversation that needs to be externalized so as to guide behaviors or reach realizations. It is as if thought is speaking of itself in an attempt to pour itself out of the container that is the human body.
In this sense, people radically start to "think out loud," to the point of expressing even seemingly inappropriate thoughts and opinions which now flow as a steady confident stream of words.
Even when the person seeks to stop their outspoken thinking process, they vulnerably witness how they are forced to talk things through, observing how the outer and underworld have become unified and undifferentiated. With such thin boundaries between one's body-mind and the room's, the sense of thought belonging to one person only is broken down, giving up space to a sense of one mind of multiple bodies.
The library
In July 2017, I (Pi) chose to stop facilitating innerdance, as I entered into a restive stage, called to process all that had been happening in the minds of others and myself. At this time:
- I was conducting many workshops in various countries and even as I did so, my own language was wanting to halt naturally, as my mind demanded rest from speech and all social dynamics (including my family's). In the silence of a deep retreat process, I watched myself go through a serious mental reorganization that required deep focus and a lot of free time and space for spiritual development and growth.
- In a treehouse I made just for this retreat, I created an intensive library system in my environment that mirrored what was also taking place inside me. Inside hundreds of folders, I started to organize global thought systems accordingly in terms of form and content.
- Organization happened in Time and Space. The Universe became like a School of Consciousness that was learning from itself. The Story of Spirit, as I had come to know it through the innerdance energy school, was intermediately linking the realm of the wordless, with the kingdom of word concepts which comprise our realities.
- At this point, I felt I was in the Egocentric Stages of the World itself. At an age of internet connections, yet being on a mountain without cellphone signals, I was hearing the many voices that had spoken throughout our histories.
- Every folder of the mind was a concept, idea or thought being redrawn. Every thought was being thought about, not alone but altogether. I felt as if I knew little about everything, but I know everything about the little about everything. Somehow, everything knowable about everything was being invited to undergo shifts. And that it was important to meet, connect and come to know the energies within these concepts, ideas and thoughts. - A reality was being presented to us, one that follows the innerdance and follows the internet and all of these digital information conducted by electricity. An awareness was being transmitted from a different understanding of time, a convergence of our histories in the Oral Traditions, the Age of Writing and the Age of Electricity.
boundaries
The workings of literacy in the human mind and social development is clearly one of condensation of Spirit onto the structures of narrative. As children grow old, their sense of identity builds up features that become an important part of their existence. Society offers us many different roles to follow, with the scripts of what to say and what not to already handled by norms. We learn how to navigate between narratives as we ourselves believe to be those stories that are carried upon the language processes.
Magnetism shapes energy, that spirals in different directions according to the shape of its content and the differences between the "I" and the "You" emerge as the child transits from the outer to the inner speech. In the innerdance process, however, the coming back to the Space of conception prior to Time allows the boundaries of the narratives we carry within to be seen and, in a sense, let go of. As we observe the thoughts and mental formations that begin to rise from deep spaces in the room and as we journey through the sharings of different participants in the room, we witness the thinning of boundaries that were once building up personalities.
One room. One heart. One global mind begins to speak as words are set free from the restrictions of boundaries.
Facilitators that are able to channel the room, speaking to itself, are merely diving into a different state of consciousness, one that understands how words represent the structures of the system that, at that particular time, needs to look at itself. Many intuitive people claim to be able to tune in and mirror peoples' thoughts and feelings, as if there was a way to connect to deep patterns and by surrendering to the process and to the new sense of selflessness, a state where there is no individual personal, stories are able to be spoken of.
What does it mean to open up the body-mind to its inner intelligence?
innerdance is the process of surrender and trust to one's own autonomy. When lying down to the sessions, the body-mind works itself out to find its authentic state of balance. Each and all of us hold the key to transform and to grow. As sounds break down patterns, opening up the space for deep memories and feelings to be revisited from different predispositions, we allow ourselves to become more vulnerable and in such state, find our strength. A new body emerges, one that flows in creativity, one that gains awareness to its sensibility and begins to experience external sensory inputs in heightened levels. The old and rigid structured that grew once out of separateness is now finding a new way of being in fluidity as it finds the way back to its own and singularities that are but a part of a greater organism.
It takes time for the new structure to settle in and more than often, participants might feel and experience extreme loss of their sense of self, ups and downs in their moods and other experiences that, to the adult mind, more familiar to the old structure might be seen as alarming. However, such aspects, when looked from the lenses of developmental psychology, language acquisition and coming from an understanding of how the neuro system works during the processes are signs that deep transformations, deep resignifications are taking place from a Space of Trust.
Just as any and everyone is a healer, everyone is an empath, a sensitive and sentient being. It just happens that different patterns and mechanisms are built within the body-mind of a child at his/hers early years: power dynamics between caretakers/parents and their language, how emotions are felt/dealt with, what set of norms are present in the space and how the child's inner wisdom guides the process of his/her inner growth. Patterns that will create thick or thin boundaries between the external and internal conceptions of the world and will then, during the innerdance process, be looked at, decomposed and recomposed so as to emerge as something new, yet old and wise.
additional study material
Code, Context, Content - by Pi Audio frameworks on the nature of words, boundaries and the innerdance process
Mapping your energy flow - essay The facilitator of innerdance has the intuitive gifts of synchronising electrical surges that spread from focal areas of the brain and body to cover the whole system, therefore bringing about possible integration which connectivity largely offers. When partial activation of energy begins to happen, various manifestations occur. This write up offers a mapping of such activations and the brain.