Contexts for the Game Bored

by Valdas

​My deeper long story "short"... :)

When finishing the K-12 I planned to study Physics at the university yet three months before graduating I have switched to Economics & Finance as very deeply "practical" physics :)
Chose to be born into the play of family with the kind of "limited" resources, the space which hinted at that shift I guess now...


Started the game in the bank at the beginning of the third year of studies.
Started the play "partnership" in the last year of university.

On the eve of 28th birthday (some say it has something to do with the Saturn return) after seven years in the bank playing several roles from the Customer Manager till the Head of Risk Management (almost becoming a Board Member) the space of that play very clearly hinted to get out of that "game"... to have a peaceful night sleep... otherwise as head of risk management I should have to become the deep part of some very dense play related to movement of large amounts of money~energy...
I chose the peace of the night. Went out to "nowhere"...

Parents weren't very happy when I bravely announced that post factum at the table on Christmas eve (I have quit the job two days before Christmas).

Then I had 4+ months of space~time for myself.
Went into some philosophical and esoteric reading and nature walking.

Then returned back to the employment as deputy CFO at construction and real estate development company.
Yet I completed that "level of the game" in one year after playing myself into the role of organizational structure change agent.
I have met the "densities" of authoritative private ownership space when trying to apply my tightly structured knowledge developed in the banking institution space.
Where actually was needed the interplay of some clear and simple rules within the space of sole leadership guiding the initiatives of managers.
Went out of the" employment game" again.

Then peacefully went out of the play "partnership" after 6+ years together with my previous partner.
We arranged the party for friends to announce that ending yet they arrived with the intention and anticipation to celebrate the announcement of our decision to marry.
That was a huge misunderstanding and deep time for conversations that evening.

After some space~time for myself went into the role of business consultant helping companies to do CFO work when it was needed yet there was no need for full-time positions (small & medium businesses).

Between consulting projects there were quite long and deep spaces for being within myself when living alone, reading, watching movies and documentaries, taking runs or long walks in nature, swimming.
Themes of deep inquiries ranged from world~economic~financial~social~political structures to the business organization+meaning+purpose structures to family structures to the inner personality structures.


In the autumn 2008 I went through some deep threshold into the next level of the game.
I don't remember how I found the indicator of the global ecological footprint of humans on Earth.
This number was around 1.3 and growing. Meaning that the humans are consuming more "bio-production" provided by Earth than it is capable to (re)generate.
I found that thing as the only one meaningful for me to stay in the "outer game" at that time when being alone in some deep dark space within me.
I decided to return back into the Matrix with the intention to change it for the better.
In the spring of 2009 I met my current partner Brigita with her two daughters.
Moved to live together later that year.

We tried together to run the business of trading nature friendly cleaning products.
Yet unsuccessfully. I wasn't entrepreneurial and competitive enough for that.
I gave up and returned back to the employment at the same bank yet into a role much more minor than the one I had when I left in 2001.

After two years the bank went bankrupt.
I went back into business consulting.
I had some projects with the long spaces in between as usual.

In 2014 we married and our son was born.
The true ray of light.

Simultaneously together with my partner we both searched for practices and modalities to become more "successful" in the areas of partnership, meaningful occupation and livelihood.
Not much "success" was achieved, felt and experienced.
Yet we were traveling together further in that discovery journey through psychotherapy, B.Hellinger constellations, MA-URI bodywork, AccessBars, Theta Healing, etc.

After "massaging" the mind with the help of Theta Healing practice I have landed ("won") the full-time position of CFO in the food delivery company (fast growing start-up).
Some relief came into our "tangible" life after a long period of struggle.

In the first three months of being in that CFO role I have realized I am fully back into the tough "rat race" game.
I did my best to stay productive and even initiate some changes within the company later after I received trust credit from the owner of the business.
Yet my views on possible deep changes were not tough~competitive enough to resonate within that space.

After one year in that company I have felt and even had some suggestions to consider the change of "play-space".
There was no hurry yet the option to step out of this "level" was open.

In the summer of 2018 my partner Brigita "accidentally" met an old friend who asked her "are you going to Amara's workshop?"
Brigita felt "this is it" and we both went into a half day of InnerGuidance workshop, one day workshop and both had private sessions with Amara.
Brigita's feeling "This is it" became our plan to go to Bali in September for Amara's 5-day intensive and for 10-day facilitator workshops.

That was a clear sign to end-up my CFO employment and proceed to the next level of our game.
So we arrived in Bali . Brigita went to 5-day intensive of InnerGuidance.

A month later Brigita met Lina & Saule (ID facilitators and trainers in Lituania) in Ubud.
They suggested to "try" the "source" (compared to inner guidance) play-game process in the form of id process with Gigi.
"That was it" again... After that session Brigita decided not to continue with 10-day inner guidance facilitator workshop.

Later we both went to the id process with Gigi.
Then I met Lina & Saule. Lina pointed to the fresh initial Stoudious Mundos website.
I "dived" into that space, reading it through in a kind of single swoop.
Then I contacted Pi by email. The new chapter-level opened up for me as well.
We went into deep and long exchange through many emails.
I shared my idea (which initially sprouted through me ~2015) about building kind of adventure game to be played in the real world with the help of devices.
The idea was to use the template of Hero's Journey by J.Campbell for adventure-like story scenarios to be played outdoors.
The stories played should be telling-translating some deep patterns and knowing to have deep inner resonance for the players initiating the deep inner processes within.

After two months in Bali we returned back to Lituania.
Somewhere in the spring-summer 2019 the idea about indoor board game for children and parents came through that I shared with Pi as well.
I have made some initial designs and have cut some examples of it from the plywood (the picture earlier in this group).
Yet the binding stories-narratives for it were still "missing"...
Brigita took a weekend workshop of Light Language in the summer 2019.
Then we both took part in the online Deep Story process where Brigita regressed into aphasia for almost 5 months without speaking (one month fully and literally lying in the bed only).
In the last days of 2019 I have heard the first words from her again.

In March 2020 we have been preparing to hold the Deep Story process space here in Lituania for a small circle of corporate people (mostly business owners).
The lockdown delayed it. And changed it.
Around the time of solstice the movement started in the space around the board game concept.
The design-structure parts came in. The new version of the board game map was layed out.
Our zoom meeting took place...

Before/if proceeding deeper into the board game space, let me share the meta-map I see here... which kind of shows how I see this board game in the bigger context.
This will help me and you to see clearly where I am coming from, where I am at with it and where I feel it is heading me to...

Now working on it. Will share it later with you...